Depression

[pandora_parrot]

Ah fuck. My extreme level of inactivity for the past few weeks, due to being sick, has rendered me with a bit of a depression. I have no energy to do anything and just want to do mindless activities to avoid thinking about anything. I have dishes to do, bills to pay, and work to do on personal projects... but I just... don't feel up to it right now.

I need to get finish getting over being sick and then get back in the swing of things. Right now, I feel buried under everything I need to take care of.

Comments

[maestrodog.livejournal.com]

I feel for you, really. I've been going through the same crap, without the physical sickness part. Looking back on this holiday, I didn't really CHOOSE on my own to do much social activity at all...only what I felt absolutely obligated to do, like paying bills and seeing family on Christmas day. I did go see a couple movies with my wife, but I'm not real sure she was "into" them, as it were. You'd think I'd be looking forward to going back to work, which adds some structure to my day and where I know I'm valued, but I'm not really keen on that either. More and more lately I've felt like when I get to work, I just want to do what I need to do, and then get home ASAP. I guess it doesn't help that most of my day is spent in an isolated cubicle with restricted web access, either.

Mostly what I've felt like doing is staying home on the computer playing WoW or looking at cheesy videos or porn, and then watching TV when I get tired of the computer. And I know that's not healthy at all. This year I want to start limiting my "screen time" outside of work and find other things to do, especially as that's also most of my job.

It will help considerably that I have both a music workshop and a show (!) coming up.

I think if you can find a structured activity that regularly gets you out of the house at least once a week, preferably at least 2 or 3 times, you'll start feeling a little more "normal" again.

*hugs* Hope you get better soon.

[paradox-puree.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you're right about where I'm at, actually. Pretty much identically.

I'm looking forward to getting back to rock climbing and doing some biking and such again soon to get out of this funk and get active again.

[auntysarah.livejournal.com]

I hear ya. I struggle with similar throughout the winter months, and it can be really hard to force oneself to break the cycle.

[voiceofanangel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Yeah, stuff can get pretty overwhelming for me, too, when I start to recover from being sick/sore/etc.