Hiding under the covers

[pandora_parrot]

Hiding under the covers

Fucking world.
Doesn't love me.
Peek out from the covers and see.
I hide.

Because people are pain
and words are empty
the love that I want
they'll never share.
I walk alone
The rain is cold and lonely
I fall way down
into a sea of tears.

Love.
It's what I want
So badly.
I wait here for it to come.

Twenty years I hid,
Hiding under the covers,
Dreaming of the day when love would come.
Waiting for someone to take the time
to peek underneath and see
I hid.

Because people are pain
and words are empty
the love that I want
they'll never share.
I walk alone
The rain is cold and lonely
Filled with a sorrow
that no one can pierce.

Stand up.

Though I sought love,
I never felt it.
Family and friends
Partners the same.

They said they love me,
But I knew that they don't
The feeling in my heart speaks true
Hiding in sadness,
on top of my bed
I wished for my dream to come true.

Characterizing the past
Standing inside the doorway of life
Looking out into the world
Seeing the things that I desperately want
I never realized
I never knew
That all that I saw was right here in my heart.

Hello.
I was waiting for you to come
I was waiting for love to arrive
I was waiting for the dreams that I dreamed to be real.
I wanted you so much.
I needed you so much.
Your heart and your touch and your mind.
You were the one that I was waiting for.
You were the one that I sought.
Each time I was loved, I didn't pay attention,
Because they weren't you.
I needed you to love me first and foremost
So now I feel the love
Now I feel the joy.

Love surrounds me as I look upon your face,
Your beautiful face in the mirror.

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This was there in place of the "Characterizing my past" paragraph.
And in the infinite dreams of a world made real
I stand inside the doorway
Staring off into a world I desperately desire
What I don't realize is that it's here in my heart.